Abu Muhammad Murta'ash Nishapuri (d. 939-40), a companion of Abu Hafs and Junayd, related how he went on pilgrimage "while trusting in God" (i.e. taking no provisions) thirteen times.
However, "when I examined my conduct closely", Murta'ash reflected, "I saw that all my trips were motivated by vain passion and selfishness (bar hawa-yi nafs bud)."
"How did you know that?" he was asked.
"Well," he replied, "once (after my return) my mother asked me to hand her a pitcher of water, and I felt this request to be too burdensome to endure.
I then realized that all those pilgrimages had been motivated by my own greedy selfish passion (sharah-i nafs).
- Attar in Tadhkirat, 515
FROM: The Wisdom of Sufism